questions for the abuser

am i a muse? do i bring charm? do i leave you? have i made you strange? have i taught you how to hate? could you kill me, really? did i sort of ask you to? wont you yet? when am i finally gonna get it? you only gave half of it to me. i didn't even bruise. come on your hands, you can do better than that. bring those calloused fingers inward, push them closer. maybe i can pop like a water balloon. my veins are beating you. this game is fascinating. i feel nothing but elation. i'm a cat at your hands, i could lick you now.